You Can't Take Back Everything You Said

And that would be the song that is stuck in my head. A great song by Shelly Fairchild. I'm sure you'll be hearing it soon. She just got back from L.A....and the newly mixed CD is fabulous. Its crazy how i've heard these songs..from the beginning...was in the studio when they were being recorded...Yet, I can't take the CD out of my car. I tried. Today. I put in something else but after one song...i had to put Shelly back in there. I can't wait for the world to hear it. It will happen soon.

So...my last few days have been a little upsetting. People just amaze me sometimes. To say the least. I was torn up about it for awhile...but, today is a new day and thanks to my friends i've learned that you don't give those people the satisfaction of destroying you. Shes right. I'm a good person. i KNOW i'm a good person. I can't change what people say...but, i can continue to be who I am and the people that REALLY know me will know whats right and wrong. I'm coming to terms with things. Its hard to realize you meant nothing to someone that meant everything to you. Oh well. I can't be worrying about it. I have a lot of work to do these days. Shelly this. Shelly that. Shelly Logo. Shelly packaing. Shelly promo. hahaha Its pretty exciting. I love every minute of it. Its cool how it doesn't seem like work to me too...just being with my friends...and coming up with some cool stuff. Fun.

Today Gypsy and i had lunch with Teresa. It was so fun. Gypsy got to meet Fluffy and Stewy. They didn't like her too much...haha But nevertheless...they were ADORABLE together. Teresa got her A LOT of cute things. One being this lil jacket. Gypsy actually really likes wearing clothes for the most part. Probably because it keeps her lil self warm. haha


Also...I got my Martina Shirts in the mail today. I designed a couple for the tour. Here is a pic of them. Not the greatest...but still you can kinda tell. I'm really excited about it. I hope i get to do some more stuff for Tee-Cee and Martina.


well...Tomorrow is Sunday. Lots to be done. I think i'm going to end this and put the pup to bed...and maybe even go to bed myself. Heres to hoping i'm even happier tomorrow. I'm getting there. Friends and puppies help :)

GG and ZZ are BFF's

Its so funny to see these two play together. It makes me so happy. They make me happy. I am so glad they get along...because these few days dog sitting could have been ROUGH. haha

Nothing new really to report. Turns out my design business last year did pretty well. My first year freelance was a mini-success! :) yay! I was talking with a friend the other day and we were chatting about our year. I was going on and on about all the bad things that had happened to me/us...and how i wasn't happy with some things/people. I was being entirely too negative. She said...well, it hasn't been ALL that bad. You have gotten A LOT of clients...and you managed to make it in freelance. Shes right! I've had the chance to design for Little Big town, Martina McBride, and of course SHELLY! Sure, there has been some bad stuff...mostly personal.....but, a lot of really great stuff too. This new year has started off to be amazing. I have a great new lil puppy, i've gotten some work...even with a few new people, and have learned A LOT about myself. Live and learn I guess.

On another note....Its weird to me how you can care so much for someone. Then, it all disappear in a second. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone but me....but, nevertheless i find it crazy. I guess its safe to say it was all a lie huh? ha...thats what i'm telling myself...thats the only way I can make sense of it all. Its sad. Again...live and learn....liiiiive and learn. It doesn't matter now anyways...I'm on my way to happy!! I have my true friends, my family, my work, and my puppy :)

My Goals for 2010:
1. Find a programmer to partner up with that is on the same page as me (creatively).
2. Design SOMETHING for the Lilith Fair tour (can be anything...flyer, t-shirt, ANYTHING!).
3. Do Shelly Fairchild's packaging for the new album (and website).
4. Get office space!!!!
5. Find someone who loves me for me. Then, live happily ever after..haha
6. Double the amount of clients i have.
7. The obvious...make more money. haha
8. Learn more about video...and get better at it!
9. Be a better...friend, daughter, granddaughter, niece, designer, business person, photographer, videographer, client...
10. Teach my puppy to be the best puppy she can be (ha!!..cheezy but i like it).
11. Travel more
12. Pay off my laptop

Gypsy

My new puppy...i love her dearly. Today, i take her to the vet for her first check up! Lets hope everything is great :)

She sleeps a lot. Wish i could. She stays up all night crying and then pees all over the carpet. I hope that is overwith by the time i leave KS to go back to TN.

Here she is sleeping with her toy from Aunt Shelly and Stephony. That and her giraffe are her favorite toys. ha

Shellys Splash Page

Her sites are in transition...

This is whats up in the mean time...check. It. Out.
www.shellyfairchild.com

Meet logo girl.

The CO

Here is the most recent website i've done....

www.thecomusic.com

I like them. And their logo (I did that too...haha)

I want to help you but I don't know how....to reach you...to reach you...

that is being sung right now by Carolyn....in the studio...for the new album...

I love that line. For many reasons.

The End.

Make Every Word Hurt....

Well don't waste your time
Don't allow him distractions
If you have to close your eyes
But dont wait for a reaction

Don't stop to breathe
Unwipe your mouth
You won't be misperceived
I'll figure it out

But whatever you do
For whatever its worth
If you're gonna tear my world apart
Then I'd prefer
Don't leave me confused
Don't let the lines blur
If you're gonna tell me
You don't love me anymore
Make every word hurt....

Don't walk away now
And don't second guess
You felt this way a moment ago
Why should my tears change any of this?

So whatever you do
For whatever it's worth
If you're gonna tear my world apart
Then I'd prefer
Don't leave me confused
Don't let the lines blur
If you're gonna tell me
You don't love me anymore
Make every word hurt....

Make every word sting
Make every word bleed
Until I'm not gonna wanna love you anymore
Until you're nothing I need
So when I wake up in the morning
For the next 20 years
I won't be wishing
For someone who just dissapeared

So whatever you do
For whatever it's worth
If you're gonna tear my world apart
Then I'd prefer
Don't leave me confused
Don't let the lines blur
If you're gonna tell me
You don't love me anymore
Make every word hurt....

- Lori McKenna "Make Every Word Hurt"